An open letter to God about my war inside

The war inside by tv.


Dear God, my mind says as well as my heart. What should I do?

God, you created our minds and hearts. You have created everything we can see or cannot. But the most frustrating thing is my mind and my heart saying two different things about the same thing.

This is real hell. This is the cause of so many divorces. Breaking up. Killings. Violence. Murders. Insanity. Etc.

God, if you knew beforehand that a human being will face such a huge crisis then why did you do it?

My battles by tv.



My mind hates some but my heart says don’t hate. My mind calculates everything logically and I think it’s right.

But then my heart screams inside. It says my logic is not right. I should not. I must not.

This lands me into confusion. I keep processing. Both sides. But I am not successful in deciding which one is the best guide?

Sometimes, my heart says go for it. Forgive one more time. Love one more time. Give help once more.




But my mind says different. It says don’t believe that person again. Don’t forgive. Act wisely.

God, you made the heavens and the Earth. The stars and the galaxies. Sea and all the creatures.





This is so vast and wonderful. Sometimes, I hate this confusion. The war inside of me.

I am torn between. No one seems to understand this. Rather no one can rescue.

I know I won’t get rid of this. I must learn to dance in spite of this.

This is very hard. Real hell. Would you help me?

No one escapes by tv.

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How breakthrough comes in a life of mess? How I almost got killed but survived?

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My story by Titus Vargis
Life as we face it by Titus vargis



Life is not mathematics. That means it’s not five plus five equal to ten here.

We can’t lay down our plans but it’s life that overrules here on this planet.

We can either fear or face it. There are no other way around.

As human beings,we are not superhuman. We are not Hollywood superstars either.

Life is difficult and more than difficult for the vast majority of us. What can we do about it?

How did the breakthrough happen? My own life is a great example.



I lost my dad at a very young age. I almost had nothing to hold on to. It was almost impossible to carry on.

I decided to give up. I attempted suicide several times. But I couldn’t succeed. God perhaps had other plans.

No human being could stop my depression. My life was a mess. I had no money. My mother had no job. Moreover my younger brother was in school.

Someone introduced a higher way. I was not ready to accept anything. As I had become hopeless I didn’t even want to try anything.

But after much consideration,I thought why not should I take this chance.

My life changed bit by bit. It was as if I was gaining a new perspective of life. I was vulnerable. I had no hope but now I was hopeful.

Misery became a miracle. I started praying. I started my relationship with Jesus. I had no purpose in life.

My suicidal thoughts began to disappear. I found relief. A big relief.My family began to change.My condition improved.

I don’t want to say that you need to try this too but I would say it gets really better when we try. No one can help a hopeless person. No amount of money can remove bad luck.

One needs a divine hand. It’s in fact the only way. I think had I not tried this path I would have definitely ended my life somehow.

Life gives you no relief. Friends can help to some point. No one walks with you forever.

My life got transformed. It was a miracle indeed.

Let’s face it: you can’t carry pain and despair forever. You can’t live in such desperation. You will not survive.

Now I am glad that I took this path. My life still has a lot of weaknesses but I am courageous now. I am glad that I found the answer.

Best wishes.

My own experience by Titus Vargis
My story by Titus Vargis.

What God really really wants?

Giving up is easy but never give up
The monumental question of our existence by Titus Vargis.

The monumental question mankind has been struggling with.



The most crucial question in the World is this: what God wants?

The strength of the question is not in the ‘what’ but in GOD.

Humankind has been asking this question from ages.

The man in his search for meaning and significance realised that no one can give him meaning and significance on this planet but GOD.

The question implies that there is a GOD. Our existence demands our significance.

We as a human being are looking for the reasons behind our existence.

The GOD factor helps us to face the uncertainties of this planet.



Gods and the question by Titus Vargis.

We don’t find our meaning and significance in our money or people. People are not the ones we are looking for our monumental question.

We look to GOD for our monumental question. We know that the one who brought us into this planet is GOD himself.

For centuries mankind has founded religions and practices that try to give his soul the answers.

What God wants? How can we answer this question?

We must go through the oceans of the Holy Books and the story tellers.

We have found that God wants our heart,body,money,soul and so on.

But does this confirm our answers?

Are we sure about this?

If God wants bla bla bla bla bla….then why God is still God sitting somewhere and doing nothing…?

The truth that we search for is this,

GOD HAS EVERYTHING. GOD IS LARGER THAN EVERYTHING.

GOD IS SO FULL OF EVERYTHING THAT YOU NEED NOT GIVE HIM ANYTHING.

MOREOVER THE MOST MONUMENTAL TRUTH IS THIS: GOD DID NOT ASK THIS QUESTION.

IT WAS NOT THE QUESTION THAT GOD ASKED. GOD WANTS NOTHING. GOD OWNS THE MILKYWAY AND THE STARS. THE UNIVERSE BELONGS TO HIM.

once you look onto this truth, you are changed forever. God is not looking for something. God cares nothing about what you give to Him.

It’s the so called religion and priests that demand everything in the name of God. So that they get everything in the name of God.

The Power behind the religion is putting up lots of requirements to the people. Unless you put impossible requirements people won’t come to you for help.



The monumental answer by Titus Vargis.Photo by Adnan Khan on Unsplash

This creates a cycle of exploitation. This way people can be effectively exploited. We see for centuries mankind has been duped.

Even the so called good religions are exploiting in the name of their gods.

Let’s examine these answers. Let’s find the exploitation and demand answers from the so called keepers of gods.

© Titus Vargis

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